Sunday, February 7, 2010

Punctuality is the Virtue of the Bored

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Shoot! I’m too early again. What can I do? Pretend studying? Nah, I’ll just write this blog instead. I am currently making my it’s-supposed-to-be-free-cut time worthwhile. I realized that I’ve been coming to school too early, as early as time itself, I suppose. But what can I do? I’m bored and as I personally view it, school is the only place where ennui never sets in. Well, that’s according to my indirect sources. It’s boring to be bored, isn’t it?

Pretending that you’re doing something just to get out of boredom just intensifies it. Pretending to do things will appear more boring because you just forced yourself to do it. Hmm, this write-up is getting more boring and boring. But what can I do? The writer is bored anyway, and this reflects what I am feeling right now.

Okay, this write-up was written four days ago, but up to now, it still isn’t finished. I’m still bored and I am aware that boredom is not that easy to be exhaled from one’s daily breath of life. I have observed that as days come to an end, a sense of nothingness intensifies, as if it gradually eats my hours up. It hurts to think that I am now devolving, from a university student to a primeval abecedarian. I can’t believe that I’m entertaining such thoughts for I know, deep inside that I never wanted to live my life in this way. As I hear these thoughts tintinnabulate far and wide, I am now slowly accepting the fact that boredom is inevitable and it affects each of us in different ways. The good thing, though, is that, “boredom” still knows how to tire out, how to be exhausted, and by that time starts to transpire, we are about to be given an ample opportunity to make our lives less boring. Phew, I’m starting to feel that boredom is slowly escaping from my unusually eccentric thoughts right now. I guess, it’s about time to finish this write-up. I’ll just write something like this as soon as I get bored but for now, I’ll stop this. Or else, this would not sound too boring for you, wink. Thanks for making my boring time slightly and definitely worthwhile.

Exhaustion at its Best


“I’m tired”. This summarizes every thought, idea or emotion that I have harbored during these past few days. If you’re from my school, then you’ve probably seen me running around, sometimes prancing. No, I was just kidding. Well anyways, you’d see me running near the math walk or whatever you call it. All I know is that I’m tired of doing it. It’s very mundane of us to have been bothered by the worldly delinquencies and limited abilities, by stupid mistakes and frustrated efforts, and by falsified truths and cowardly lies. Well, I guess I have been bothered by at least two of those but guess what; I’m never going to tell you which is which. I’ll keep it a secret first. Besides, this is my blog, my open diary – MY tiny world in a gigantic universe.

I never wanted myself to be delinquent, but I guess fate has let me down, again. Cramming is the best way that I could ever think of when I have been bombarded with such papers, drafts, essays and sets of bloody calculus homework. This is hell. I have been exhausting myself for weeks now and I have myself alarmed when I got used to sleeping for only two hours. Imagine that. The things I do for the academe, my parents, and whoever wants my studies dedicated to. Delinquency springs not from thyself but from others. I was never born delinquent but having witnessed my friends and other acquaintances give up on something made me do so as well. See, I got myself stuck in this universal drift that is also currently making my system adapt less to a highly vulnerable environment. Fending for oneself is quite a herculean task especially for an isko but as they say, “a sense of independence here is a must-have”. In doing so, you’ll exhaust yourself and voila, I think I now have that sense of “independence”. Exhaustion is a well-used phrase here but I think the thing itself worsens every day. It might someday eat me alive or something but one thing is for sure: I’m tired; I need to go to sleep.

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